The fact that people can be soooooo SELF CENTERED and not mave a damn clue ...REALLY pisses me off....I cant take it..I mean you cant let them know because the FREAK OUT bring up all of your defects and then its WWIV.... OR they remind you of everything that they have done for you in all the years then........you cant help but present them with the strings of all that they HAVE givin and maybe even give back whatever those "gifts" were that got placed on the shelf that hangs directly above your head......WHAT IS X-MAS anyway??? i mean i am not religious therefore i dont belive in the whole christ thing and the birth and all of that so to me x-mas is just a time to give gifts and try to show the love you know????.....i find out what people want and then do the best to give it to them.......BUT NOT MY MOTHER ....SHE DOESNT ASK and to top it off she gets huffy and really doesnt care what YOU want ...."thats nice but i already have things in mind" WELL MOM REMEMBER THE GUITAR .......Really i;m quite pissed off right now....But....How much of this is from what just happened and how much of this is from the past ...all of that shit that has been embedded and piled up day after day since 9-9-82......and then i ask my self where i God in all of this and ewhats he trying to teach me.....my god everybody is pissing me off....what the fuck i cant get away from myself no matter what ....everywhere i turn people are telling me about me and the only people i can take it from ...well anyways i really have to go now....I HATE PEOPLE TODAYY>>>REALLY talk back to me ....Melinda