The fact that people can be soooooo SELF CENTERED and not mave a damn clue ...REALLY pisses me off....I cant take it..I mean you cant let them know because the FREAK OUT bring up all of your defects and then its WWIV.... OR they remind you of everything that they have done for you in all the years then........you cant help but present them with the strings of all that they HAVE givin and maybe even give back whatever those "gifts" were that got placed on the shelf that hangs directly above you...

Well....still jobless and let me tell ya, i'm not getting happier by th minute thats for damn sure......i've been thinking about things and naaaah!!! life is kinda blaaaah i feel like goin waaaaahh....yeah life is somthing elsei tell ya?

Where do i begin....I feel as though i shouldnt have to remember, verbatem, agruements, tiffs if you will, problems, or even simple discussions that people have with me but the truth of the matter is i do, and i have always had to. Why, you ask?? Because i have been the scape goat for everything that has gone wrong in peoples around me lives. The finger has always been pointed at me and i cant stand it ....Now what the hell do i do about it? I cant just walk away from it for you it's certain mem...

Every now and then the rug used to feel like it got pulled out from underneath me and you knwo wha , i was fine with that. But now i feel as though i have just chased the white rabbit straight into the whole and I'm spiraling into a huge pit of nothingness. I dont really want to be where im at, not at al actually. I see that I'm not going ot get anywhere with anything such as singing, acting, dancing, music, and so on. AND THAT HURTS! I dont knwo what to do with my life, but I'm tired of trying....